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Tehilim 38: Do not forsake me

תְּהִלִּים ל״ח · מִזְמוֹר לְדָוִד
Twenty two lines of complaint after the superscription, and the whole psalm is one sick man's inventory: flesh, bones, loins, wounds, heart, eyes. For a learner it is the best place in the book to collect body nouns carrying the first person suffix, because nearly every line supplies one. Watch verse 16, where the psalm stops describing and starts addressing, and notice that nothing is cured by the end. The last thing asked for is speed.
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1
מִזְמוֹר לְדָוִד
לְהַזְכִּיר
מִזְמוֹר
miz-MOR
a psalm
לְדָוִד
le-da-VID
of David
A psalm of David.
לְהַזְכִּיר
le-haz-KIR
to bring to remembrance
To bring to remembrance.
The heading gives a purpose rather than an occasion. It files the psalm as something brought before God, not merely something sung.
2
יְהֹוָה אַל בְּקֶצְפְּךָ תוֹכִיחֵנִי
וּבַחֲמָתְךָ תְיַסְּרֵנִי
יְהֹוָה
a-do-NAY
the LORD
אַל
al
do not
בְּקֶצְפְּךָ
be-ketz-pe-CHA
in Your rage
תוֹכִיחֵנִי
to-chi-che-NI
rebuke me
O LORD, do not rebuke me in Your rage,
וּבַחֲמָתְךָ
u-va-cha-mat-CHA
and in Your wrath
תְיַסְּרֵנִי
tyas-re-NI
chasten me
and do not chasten me in Your wrath.
Almost word for word the opening of Psalm 6, with one noun of anger swapped for another. The request is not that the discipline stop, only that it not be delivered hot.
3
כִּי חִצֶּיךָ נִחֲתוּ בִי
וַתִּנְחַת עָלַי יָדֶךָ
כִּי
ki
for
חִצֶּיךָ
chi-tzei-CHA
Your arrows
נִחֲתוּ
ni-cha-TU
have sunk down
בִי
vi
into me
For Your arrows have sunk into me,
וַתִּנְחַת
va-tin-CHAT
and it has come down
עָלַי
a-LAI
upon me
יָדֶךָ
ya-de-CHA
Your hand
and Your hand has come down upon me.
Two pictures of one blow: arrows already landed, and a weight still pressing. The speaker takes the illness as God's own doing, which is what gives him standing to argue with it.
4
אֵין מְתֹם בִּבְשָׂרִי מִפְּנֵי זַעְמֶךָ
אֵין שָׁלוֹם בַּעֲצָמַי מִפְּנֵי חַטָּאתִי
אֵין
ein
there is no
מְתֹם
me-TOM
soundness
בִּבְשָׂרִי
biv-sa-RI
in my flesh
מִפְּנֵי
mip-NEI
because of
זַעְמֶךָ
za-me-CHA
Your indignation
There is no soundness in my flesh because of Your indignation;
אֵין
ein
there is no
שָׁלוֹם
sha-LOM
peace
בַּעֲצָמַי
ba-a-tza-MAI
in my bones
מִפְּנֵי
mip-NEI
because of
חַטָּאתִי
cha-ta-TI
my sin
there is no peace in my bones because of my sin.
Two clauses with identical shape, each naming a cause. The first blames God's indignation, the second the speaker's own sin, and the psalm never separates the two again.
5
כִּי עֲוֺנֹתַי עָבְרוּ רֹאשִׁי
כְּמַשָּׂא כָבֵד יִכְבְּדוּ מִמֶּנִּי
כִּי
ki
for
עֲוֺנֹתַי
a-o-no-TAI
my iniquities
עָבְרוּ
av-RU
have passed over
רֹאשִׁי
ro-SHI
my head
For my iniquities have passed over my head;
כְּמַשָּׂא
kma-SA
like a burden
כָבֵד
cha-VED
heavy
יִכְבְּדוּ
yich-BDU
they are too heavy
מִמֶּנִּי
mi-me-NI
for me
like a heavy burden they are too heavy for me.
Water and weight inside one verse: guilt first floods above the head, then sits on the shoulders. Sin is described entirely in the vocabulary of physics.
6
הִבְאִישׁוּ נָמַקּוּ חַבּוּרֹתָי
מִפְּנֵי אִוַּלְתִּי
הִבְאִישׁוּ
hiv-i-SHU
they stink
נָמַקּוּ
na-ma-KU
they fester
חַבּוּרֹתָי
cha-bu-ro-TAI
my wounds
My wounds stink and fester
מִפְּנֵי
mip-NEI
because of
אִוַּלְתִּי
i-val-TI
my folly
because of my folly.
The most physical line here. Both verbs of rot come before the noun they belong to, so the smell arrives before the wound is even named.
7
נַעֲוֵיתִי שַׁחֹתִי עַד מְאֹד
כׇּל הַיּוֹם קֹדֵר הִלָּכְתִּי
נַעֲוֵיתִי
na-a-vei-TI
I am bent
שַׁחֹתִי
sha-cho-TI
I am bowed down
עַד
ad
to
מְאֹד
me-OD
an extreme
I am bent, I am bowed down very low;
כׇּל
kol
all
הַיּוֹם
ha-YOM
the day
קֹדֵר
ko-DER
darkened
הִלָּכְתִּי
hi-lach-TI
I have gone about
all the day I go about darkened.
Posture used as diagnosis. Bent, bowed and walking in mourning, and sustained all day rather than at a set hour of prayer.
8
כִּי כְסָלַי מָלְאוּ נִקְלֶה
וְאֵין מְתֹם בִּבְשָׂרִי
כִּי
ki
for
כְסָלַי
che-sa-LAI
my loins
מָלְאוּ
mal-U
are filled
נִקְלֶה
nik-LE
with burning
For my loins are filled with burning,
וְאֵין
ve-EIN
and there is no
מְתֹם
me-TOM
soundness
בִּבְשָׂרִי
biv-sa-RI
in my flesh
and there is no soundness in my flesh.
The catalogue circles back to the body and repeats the phrase from verse 4 word for word. The repetition is how the psalm shows that nothing has moved.
9
נְפוּגוֹתִי וְנִדְכֵּיתִי עַד מְאֹד
שָׁאַגְתִּי מִנַּהֲמַת לִבִּי
נְפוּגוֹתִי
ne-fu-go-TI
I am numb
וְנִדְכֵּיתִי
ve-nid-kei-TI
and I am crushed
עַד
ad
to
מְאֹד
me-OD
an extreme
I am numb and crushed to the last degree;
שָׁאַגְתִּי
sha-ag-TI
I have roared
מִנַּהֲמַת
mi-na-ha-MAT
from the groaning of
לִבִּי
li-BI
my heart
I have roared from the groaning of my heart.
The one loud verb in the psalm, the word used of a lion, and it rises out of a heart that is only groaning. Noise and exhaustion turn out to be the same event.
10
אֲדֹנָי נֶגְדְּךָ כׇל תַּאֲוָתִי
וְאַנְחָתִי מִמְּךָ לֹא נִסְתָּרָה
אֲדֹנָי
a-do-NAI
my Lord
נֶגְדְּךָ
neg-de-CHA
before You
כׇל
chol
all
תַּאֲוָתִי
ta-a-va-TI
my longing
My Lord, all my longing is before You,
וְאַנְחָתִי
ve-an-cha-TI
and my sighing
מִמְּךָ
mim-CHA
from You
לֹא
lo
not
נִסְתָּרָה
nis-ta-RA
is hidden
and my sighing is not hidden from You.
The turn to address. Everything catalogued so far is declared already visible, which converts the rest of the psalm from a report into an appeal.
11
לִבִּי סְחַרְחַר
עֲזָבַנִי כֹחִי
וְאוֹר עֵינַי גַּם הֵם אֵין אִתִּי
לִבִּי
li-BI
my heart
סְחַרְחַר
schar-CHAR
goes round and round
My heart goes round and round,
עֲזָבַנִי
a-za-va-NI
has left me
כֹחִי
cho-CHI
my strength
my strength has left me;
וְאוֹר
ve-OR
and the light of
עֵינַי
ei-NAI
my eyes
גַּם
gam
even
הֵם
hem
they
אֵין
ein
are not
אִתִּי
i-TI
with me
and the light of my eyes, even that is gone from me.
Three systems failing in one line: circulation, strength, sight. The light of the eyes leaving is the standard biblical idiom for a body giving out.
12
אֹהֲבַי וְרֵעַי מִנֶּגֶד נִגְעִי יַעֲמֹדוּ
וּקְרוֹבַי מֵרָחֹק עָמָדוּ
אֹהֲבַי
o-ha-VAI
those who love me
וְרֵעַי
ve-re-AI
and my companions
מִנֶּגֶד
mi-NE-ged
at a distance from
נִגְעִי
nig-I
my affliction
יַעֲמֹדוּ
ya-a-mo-DU
they stand
Those who love me and my companions stand back from my affliction,
וּקְרוֹבַי
uk-ro-VAI
and my kinsmen
מֵרָחֹק
me-ra-CHOK
from far off
עָמָדוּ
a-ma-DU
they have stood
and my kinsmen have stood far off.
The illness becomes social. Two verbs of standing frame the verse so that nobody in it moves closer, and the thing they keep away from is the affliction itself.
13
וַיְנַקְשׁוּ מְבַקְשֵׁי נַפְשִׁי
וְדֹרְשֵׁי רָעָתִי דִּבְּרוּ הַוּוֹת וּמִרְמוֹת
כׇּל הַיּוֹם יֶהְגּוּ
וַיְנַקְשׁוּ
vai-nak-SHU
and they lay snares
מְבַקְשֵׁי
me-vak-SHEI
those who seek
נַפְשִׁי
naf-SHI
my life
Those who seek my life lay snares,
וְדֹרְשֵׁי
ve-dor-SHEI
and those who seek out
רָעָתִי
ra-a-TI
my harm
דִּבְּרוּ
dib-RU
they have spoken
הַוּוֹת
ha-u-OT
ruinous things
וּמִרְמוֹת
u-mir-MOT
and deceits
and those who look for my harm speak of ruin and deceits,
כׇּל
kol
all
הַיּוֹם
ha-YOM
the day
יֶהְגּוּ
yeh-GU
they mutter
all the day they mutter.
The empty space left by the friends fills with enemies. Their muttering runs all day, set deliberately against the all day of verse 7.
14
וַאֲנִי כְחֵרֵשׁ לֹא אֶשְׁמָע
וּכְאִלֵּם לֹא יִפְתַּח פִּיו
וַאֲנִי
va-a-NI
but I
כְחֵרֵשׁ
che-che-RESH
like a deaf man
לֹא
lo
do not
אֶשְׁמָע
esh-MA
hear
But I am like a deaf man, I do not hear,
וּכְאִלֵּם
uch-i-LEM
and like a mute
לֹא
lo
does not
יִפְתַּח
yif-TACH
open
פִּיו
piv
his mouth
and like a mute who does not open his mouth.
The answer to the plotting is silence. Deaf and mute are chosen here rather than suffered, since a man who cannot hear is a man who need not reply.
15
וָאֱהִי כְּאִישׁ אֲשֶׁר לֹא שֹׁמֵעַ
וְאֵין בְּפִיו תּוֹכָחוֹת
וָאֱהִי
va-e-HI
and I have become
כְּאִישׁ
ke-ISH
like a man
אֲשֶׁר
A-sher
who
לֹא
lo
does not
שֹׁמֵעַ
sho-ME-a
hear
I have become like a man who does not hear,
וְאֵין
ve-EIN
and there are no
בְּפִיו
be-FIV
in his mouth
תּוֹכָחוֹת
to-cha-CHOT
arguments
and in whose mouth there are no arguments.
The comparison is repeated and then explained. The closing noun is a legal word, so the silence is specifically a refusal to plead his own case.
16
כִּי לְךָ יְהֹוָה הוֹחָלְתִּי
אַתָּה תַעֲנֶה אֲדֹנָי אֱלֹהָי
כִּי
ki
for
לְךָ
le-CHA
for You
יְהֹוָה
a-do-NAY
the LORD
הוֹחָלְתִּי
ho-chal-TI
I have waited
For it is for You, O LORD, that I have waited;
אַתָּה
a-TA
You
תַעֲנֶה
ta-a-NE
will answer
אֲדֹנָי
a-do-NAI
my Lord
אֱלֹהָי
e-lo-HAI
my God
You will answer, my Lord my God.
The hinge of the psalm. The silence was not weakness: the defence has been handed to someone else, and three divine names arrive in the space of two lines.
17
כִּי אָמַרְתִּי פֶּן יִשְׂמְחוּ לִי
בְּמוֹט רַגְלִי עָלַי הִגְדִּילוּ
כִּי
ki
for
אָמַרְתִּי
a-mar-TI
I said
פֶּן
pen
lest
יִשְׂמְחוּ
yis-me-CHU
they rejoice
לִי
li
over me
For I said: let them not rejoice over me;
בְּמוֹט
be-MOT
when slips
רַגְלִי
rag-LI
my foot
עָלַי
a-LAI
against me
הִגְדִּילוּ
hig-di-LU
they magnify themselves
when my foot slips they magnify themselves against me.
What he fears is not death but their pleasure. A slipping foot is the ordinary image for a life losing its footing, and they are watching for exactly that.
18
כִּי אֲנִי לְצֶלַע נָכוֹן
וּמַכְאוֹבִי נֶגְדִּי תָמִיד
כִּי
ki
for
אֲנִי
a-NI
I
לְצֶלַע
le-TZE-la
for stumbling
נָכוֹן
na-CHON
am ready
For I am ready to stumble,
וּמַכְאוֹבִי
u-mach-o-VI
and my pain
נֶגְדִּי
neg-DI
is before me
תָמִיד
ta-MID
continually
and my pain is before me continually.
A strange thing to admit inside a plea: he says he is ready to fall. The pain stands in front of him, using the same word he used in verse 10 for standing before God.
19
כִּי עֲוֺנִי אַגִּיד
אֶדְאַג מֵחַטָּאתִי
כִּי
ki
for
עֲוֺנִי
a-o-NI
my iniquity
אַגִּיד
a-GID
I declare
For I declare my iniquity,
אֶדְאַג
ed-AG
I am anxious
מֵחַטָּאתִי
me-cha-ta-TI
because of my sin
I am anxious because of my sin.
Confession stated flatly, in the present. Declaring the iniquity and worrying about it sit side by side, so admission is not presented as relief.
20
וְאֹיְבַי חַיִּים עָצֵמוּ
וְרַבּוּ שֹׂנְאַי שָׁקֶר
וְאֹיְבַי
ve-oi-VAI
but my enemies
חַיִּים
cha-YIM
are alive
עָצֵמוּ
a-tze-MU
they are strong
But my enemies are alive and strong,
וְרַבּוּ
ve-ra-BU
and they are many
שֹׂנְאַי
son-AI
those who hate me
שָׁקֶר
SHA-ker
falsely
and those who hate me falsely are many.
The contrast drawn is health, not morality. His enemies are described as vigorous, and the word for falsehood is left hanging at the end of the line.
21
וּמְשַׁלְּמֵי רָעָה תַּחַת טוֹבָה יִשְׂטְנוּנִי
תַּחַת רׇדְפִי טוֹב
וּמְשַׁלְּמֵי
um-shal-MEI
and those who repay
רָעָה
ra-A
evil
תַּחַת
ta-CHAT
in place of
טוֹבָה
to-VA
good
יִשְׂטְנוּנִי
yis-te-nu-NI
they accuse me
Those who repay evil in place of good accuse me,
תַּחַת
ta-CHAT
in place of
רׇדְפִי
rod-FI
my pursuing
טוֹב
tov
good
in place of my pursuing good.
The exchange is spelled out with the same preposition twice: evil for good, hostility for the pursuit of good. Doing right is given as the cause of the attack.
22
אַל תַּעַזְבֵנִי יְהֹוָה אֱלֹהַי
אַל תִּרְחַק מִמֶּנִּי
אַל
al
do not
תַּעַזְבֵנִי
ta-az-ve-NI
forsake me
יְהֹוָה
a-do-NAY
the LORD
אֱלֹהַי
e-lo-HAI
my God
Do not forsake me, O LORD my God;
אַל
al
do not
תִּרְחַק
tir-CHAK
be far
מִמֶּנִּי
mi-me-NI
from me
do not be far from me.
The plea returns to the volitive negative that opened the psalm in verse 2, and what it asks for is presence rather than a cure.
23
חוּשָׁה לְעֶזְרָתִי
אֲדֹנָי תְּשׁוּעָתִי
חוּשָׁה
chu-SHA
hurry
לְעֶזְרָתִי
le-ez-ra-TI
to my help
Hurry to my help,
אֲדֹנָי
a-do-NAI
my Lord
תְּשׁוּעָתִי
tshu-a-TI
my salvation
my Lord, my salvation.
Four words, and the last is a title rather than a request. The psalm ends with no cure, holding on to speed and to a name.

♦ PARDES analysis: פרדס

The four levels of Jewish reading of the sacred text: פשט Peshat (literal meaning), רמז Remez (symbolic allusion), דרש Drash (midrashic interpretation), סוד Sod (mystical meaning). The word פרדס means "orchard", each level is a fruit.

פשט · Peshat: literal meaning

A body, then a social circle, then a courtroom. Verses 2 to 11 catalogue the illness from the inside; verses 12 and 13 pull back far enough to show friends withdrawing and enemies moving into the gap; verses 14 to 21 are the speaker's conduct under that pressure, which turns out to be silence, confession, and no self defence. The hinge is הוֹחָלְתִּי (ho-chal-ti, v.16), the verb of waiting, and it explains everything before it, because a man who has handed his case over has no reason to argue his own corner. Nothing is healed by the end. The final two verses ask only that God stay close and come fast.

רמז · Remez: allusion

The opening of verse 2 is the opening of Psalm 6 with one word of anger substituted for another, close enough that the two are regularly noted together. מְתֹם (me-tom, v.4), glossed here as soundness, is a rare noun from the root meaning whole or complete, so the complaint is not that something hurts but that nothing in him is intact. קֹדֵר (ko-der, v.7) means darkened, and the same word is used elsewhere of people in mourning dress and of a sky going black, which is why the line can be read as clothing or as mood. And לְהַזְכִּיר (le-haz-kir, v.1), the only real word in the superscription, shares a root with the memorial portion burned from the grain offering in Leviticus 2, which lets the psalm present itself as an offering rather than as a song.

דרש · Drash: midrashic reading

The reading tradition takes the superscription at its word: a psalm said to bring something to remembrance is one a person recites when he wants his own case raised, which turns the whole catalogue of symptoms into evidence submitted rather than complaint vented. The silence of verses 14 and 15 is the part most often expanded. Plainly read, a man too weak to answer keeps quiet; read the other way, the silence is deliberate, a decision not to defend himself in front of people because the defence has already been filed in verse 16. On that reading the psalm is not really about illness. It is about what to do while under accusation. In Christian liturgy it is counted among the seven penitential psalms, which is a fact about its reception rather than about its text.

סוד · Sod: mystical reading

Read mystically the catalogue stops being medical. The psalm counts downward through flesh, bones, loins, wounds, heart and eyes, and in the kabbalistic idiom the body is the lower map of a whole structure, so organs that have stopped working are describing channels that have stopped conducting. סְחַרְחַר (schar-char, v.11), a heart going round in circles, and the light leaving the eyes in the same verse are the two directions of that flow slackening at once. This is also why the request of verse 22 makes sense exactly as it stands: not repair, but that the source not withdraw, since a channel with nothing above it has nothing left to carry.

Hebrew text: Miqra according to the Masorah (MAM), after the Aleppo Codex, via Sefaria, CC BY-SA. English: The Holy Scriptures, a New Translation (JPS 1917), via Sefaria, public domain. Transliteration generated by this site's own engine (assets/translit.js).